Gather up your tears and throw them back up to the sky.

Well tonight was interesting. I drove by a potential house and I liked it. We should be looking at it this week. I drove up to Ma and Pa's house to wait for Brett after the race. We had awesome steak for dinner. I also drank a bottle of wine and a Miller Light. Which makes me wonder too things, will Tums make things worse and what is considered three sheets to the wind. I went to have dinner with my parent's last night. Dad, can't cook a steak. Good thing Pa can, or we would pat $10 every time we wanted a good steak.

It was just me and the kittles last night which led to me being parinoid for being alone. But I survived. I need to spray for bugs, because the spiders are trying to invade.

Ma and I sat out on the deck with a fire in the chiminiea and I was enjoying nature, good wine, and country music on the radio. It was great. We saw a tree frog on the kitchen window so I had to take a pic. Seen here.

Sorry the pic sucks. I tried to clean it up, but it was at night taken with my cell.

I'm so tired, but I don't want to go to bed just yet.

Also I read a list of the hot or not bikini bods. Apparently I'm a not. They are down right cruel on these. We aren't perfect, get over it. The normal person can't keep a super model figure and to make them feel like they shouldn't even put on a one piece is not fair at all. It really brings down everyones self esteem and pisses me off. Apparently I need to go out and get lipo, before I should be aloud to wear a suit, let alone a bikini. What in the world are things coming too? Gods, the world is so fucked up with concepts of "beauty", that we never see the true beauty, of others. Just pisses me off. Well my eyes are closing without permission, so I better go. Laters! Savvy?

-Aislin

Don't worry, the company isn't closing.

Though we canned your boss.

I'm not kidding there. My boss was fired. I really don't know what to think of it to tell you the truth. But it came as a huge shock to everyone. He's already been replaced. Sod is a good person and Brett said she is good to work under, so I'm kind of looking forward to it.

Things have been kind of up in there air the last couple of days. They didn't have any work for us so we were to go home early and we were not to come in yesterday. They even told me, the friendly neighborhood receptionist that has to come to work when everyone else gets the day off, had to stay home. I have to admit I was worried. But they said work is coming in again, they just had to change around some stuff. So that's good.

I was going to download some new anime songs for my iPod, but I got caught up watching the last of the second leg of Full Metal Panic. I love that anime. I really do. I wish I could make Souske and Chidori Sims. But I don't think the sims programing can handle making someone so rigid awkward as Souske. LOL!

Went to see the Wolverine movie. It was awesome. Brett won me a Kakashi-sensei from the crane game. It made me so happy. Yes my husband winning a small plush toy out of a arcade game makes me happy. When we were dating he would win me stuff out of it every time we went to a movie. It just reminded me that in all this chaos that we are going through. Some things are still the same. ^_^

Well the kittehs are m'owing for their dinner, so I better feed them and skitter off to bed. Laters! Savvy?

-Aislin

A sunday drive.

We drove by the house in Danville. It's really out there. Goodness. It's only about a mile away from SM and JM. On the way to Ma and Pa's we took back roads. It was nice I saw some countryside and cows. Some baby cows. I realized I got sunburned yesterday. Not fun. But it was a nice sunday drive and I enjoyed it.

I ended up taking a sort nap at the house. We had pizza for lunch and tacos for dinner. Yum!

I've started watching the second series of Full Metal Panic. Really, Souske and Chidori really need to just do each other and get it over with. I do like the show though. I want a big paper fan.

Three day weekend next weekend. Yay! Can't wait. Really can't wait. I really don't want to go to work tomorrow. I guess I have a case of the Sunday blues. Life goes on. Laters! Savvy?

-Aislin

A day of rain and cars.

Yo. I know I've been lacking on my blogging but sims 2 and online anime has hooked me. I will try to keep up with it.

Ok now that my meds are where they should I've noticed a few things. I'll get shaky if I don't take my day meds. And my balance on stairs will never be the same again. I think I'll survive as long as I have something to hold onto.

I went out to the track with Brett today. Numnuts that was supposed to go with us, blew Brett off again. Only for Brett to get a text message from him at 7:30 with a lame excuse. Brett didn't want to go after that, but I convinced him to go. We walked around in the rain I got a Hideki Mutoh shirt from the Danica Patrick merchandise booth. Oh it said Andretti Green on the trailer but 99% of the merchandise on it was Danica related. WTF!? I haven't seen such over publication of a person with no talent since William Hung.

Well we walked and walked, and walked in the rain. I drank a Mike's Hard Lemonade and we walked some more. We finally got to the bleachers in the middle of turn one. My ass is still wet from the failed attempt to use a plastic bag as a barrier against the wet seat. We watched as they dried the track I snuggled with Brett a bit. We watched Milky Donuts white wall a tire between turns one and two. It was decent considering the majority of the drivers were scared of the track. I had fun and a corn dog. My back was killing me as we headed to the car, so Brett drove home and we decided to not go by my parent's house.

I missed the Preakness Stakes, forgot to record it. I watched the race replay online. All I can say is Holly Crap! Not only did the filly Rachael Alexander beat all the other horses, she creamed them. She was in the lead the whole race, then at the end sped up to leave them all in the dust. That filly has talent.

I went out and picked up sticks in the rain for nothing yesterday. Mr. Asshat didn't come and mow today. He actually did something smart by realizing it is just too wet to mow. Brett and I are going to drive by a house in Danville on the way to Ma and Pa's house. I'm looking forward to a semi lazy day and so is my back. Laters! Savvy?

-Aislin

Shopping's a headache.

Well not always, but I got a headache after coming back from grocery shopping. Oy, my poor head. Well it has been the biggest thing I've done since I got sick, so I shouldn't be surprised.

I did keep it under budget and I should I have enough to last till next pay period. I went to Marsh. They have worse prices than Target, but I managed to get out for less than normal. Still trying to figure that out. I'll go back to Target next time, but I enjoyed how quiet Marsh was today. I really wasn't in the mood for dealing with a lot of people.

Mom went up to grandma's for the night. I found that out when I got home. Good thing I didn't decide to stop by to wish her a happy mother's day. I'll just call her later.

My cats are chair cats. They are either on a chair or a couch when they are aloud to roam the house. Shank likes Brett's video game chair. Rory steals the Steiner Recliner when Brett isn't in it. She also sleeps on the slide rocking chair. They are silly kittehs.

My Brett Brett is back and all is right with the world. He got a new video game, so all is right in his world. He is tormenting Rory again, so everything is crazy in her world. Shank could care less as long as he is fed.

Well I need to get back to virtual house hunting. Still need to find a place.

Brett just took back the remote, so my weekend of controlling the big TV is over. Now it's back to racing and House.

Laters! Savvy?

-Aislin

What to do on a sunny day.

Well there are tons of things to do, but mostly I'll just go to the store. There is laundry to be done and dishes to be washed. Seriously they need to be washed as in no drinking glassed are left. Down to a spoon and fork sort of thing. It's amazing how bad things can get when you are sick. The dishes will most likely wait until after work tomorrow, if I still have a job. I left them hanging when the Company Pres was in town. I feel so bad about it. But I was sick. It's not like I was staying home on purpose. It won't matter if the pres thinks I should go. It would be horrible if I lost my job. Our dreams of getting a house would be dumped down the drain. I'm trying not to worry about it though. Because worrying about it will solve nothing and just make me sick again.

I had cereal for lunch. Glamorous I know. But my options are limited, so cereal it is. That's why I need to go to the store. I might go down to Marsh today. I don't need beef, so it should be ok. I just want to avoid the Target crowd and if I go to Target I might want to buy a summer dress and I really shouldn't right now.

I love my kittles they have been with me the whole time I was sick, trying to make me feel better with there fuzzy warmness. Though at times Shank tried to cut the blood flow to my legs with his weight.

Brett texted me with happy mothers day, this morning. It made me happy. Though eventually I would like to be a mother to a human, instead of just animals. But with expenses and everything, I'm not sure that will be able to happen.

Brett is off at his parent's house, watching their dogs. I miss him and my paranoia is running rampant yet again. I don't think I will be mentally right till he gets home. That and I'm jealous he got steak for dinner last night. I've never done well by myself also. My paranoia gets the best of me and I start to worry about someone breaking in or something. Which results in me walking around the house checking the doors and windows umpteen million times, with a baseball bat in my hand. Yeah, I admit it, I have issues. What else do you expect from a person that rarely has been alone in her life.

But still Brett will be home tonight and I will follow him around like a puppy for an hour till he gets annoyed and tells me to back off. I can't help it. I miss him so much when he's gone. I just want to squeeze him forever after he gets home. He doesn't like that much though and looks at me like I'm crazy.

Well I need to get to the store and back. I also need to run a load or two through the washer. I should have got going earlier. I could have put some clothes out on the line to dry. Ah well, I keep talking about it and never doing it.

Laters! Savvy?

-Aislin

Sleeping with Tsubaki.

For the past 3 days I have been sick. I haven't been sick to the point where I had to stay home more than a day for years. It's not been fun. I've felt like crap and been bored out of my mind. You'd think with unlimited access to the net, I would find a way to entertain myself. Not so really. Since I got sick. I moved Tsubaki into my bedroom with me. The way I have things set up I just set her off to the other side of the bed and go to sleep. So I've been sleeping with Tsubaki. Lazy I know.

As much as I love skipping out of work, I'd rather go to work and deal with the company president that feel as bad as I did these past days. That's sad isn't it. I promise I wasn't playing hooky. I really was sick. I'm feeling much better now, though I would like to get rid of these headaches.

They finally got my meds straitened out. It works well for me. From what I can see I have no more shakes. Which I am very happy about. Stupid CVS with assuming things instead of asking questions.

We aren't able to get the house we wanted. We are sad about it, but we knew it was a possibility so we are ok with it. I keep trucking on. Which also means annoy Brett with house prospects. He's been a trouper though. He's got a part time job as the IRL writer for the Examiner. It doesn't pay much, but he's getting published and that could lead him to other things in the future. I'm proud of him for getting the job.

I tried to find a clean video chat place. I found out there isn't one. Though there are designated places for the pervs, they still lurk around the normal ones. I wanted to reach out to the outside world after being locked up for 3 days, and to test Tsubaki's webcam, so Rory became the star of the show. It's kind of hard for a guy to say show me your tits when they are looking at a sleeping cat. I did get a few normal people that wanted to just talk. One turned her camera on her cat so I could see it. But all in all it was a bad experience and I have to resign myself to the fact that there is no chat place that is pervert free.

Well I'm tired so I think I'll drift off to sleep. Laters! Savvy?

-Aislin

A break in the clouds.

I took Brett to his appointment at the orthopedist. Where the doctor informed us that the tendons at the end of his hamstring were aggravated and a cortisone should fix everything. So he got the shot, and I manage to convince the doctor to at least give him something stronger than an aspirin till the pain goes away.

We then went to see my grandmother only to find out that my mom and dad had brought my nephew up to grandma's while they cleaned out the garage for her. So a simple lunch with my grandma turned into a cluster fuck and Brett and I getting further proof of why we shouldn't leave any kids we have in the future with my mom for any period of time.

We went out to Old Country Buffet and ate well. Then we skittered out to go pick up our meds, they had finally straitened mine out. My dosage gets upped tomorrow. Not looking forward to that. We got home and settled down for the evening. We had pizza for dinner, I got the trash out before it got dark. Yay me! I also managed to get a load of laundry done, and get a much needed shower. Tomorrow It's supposed to start raining again for days, so I'm not going to be able to laundry again for a while.

I have to deal with the company president tomorrow. I managed to avoid having to be at work and dealing with her today, but I have no excuse for tomorrow. Nor can we afford any more days off. *sigh* I think I can pretend to be someone I'm not for 9 hours tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to it in the least.

I wish I knew why the president of the company doesn't like me so much. I get along great with the vice president and everyone else that isn't a regular back stabber or can actually keep it all in the toilet when they go to the rest room. Yeah, we have problems with that at work. We know who it is that is doing it, but can't call them out on it. Gross I know.

At least it was nice out today, which made the drive home pleasant. Brett has to walk around with a cane for a little while longer, but eventually everything will right it's self and he can go without it. At least that's what we were told. I hope so, because I hate to see my Brett in pain.

Well I need to get up earlier than normal tomorrow so I can put on makeup. Grr. I want to use makeup when I feel like it, not when I'm being forced to.

Also check out Failblog.org Brett and I were giggling over it today and sending each other failblog videos. It's worth the look see. Laters! Savvy?

-Aislin

The hulu zombie.

Yeah, I've discovered hulu and the commercials are right. You do get addicted to it. I spread the addiction to Brett too.

Brett went to Best Buy yesterday and overdid the walking around thing and wasn't up to going to his parent's house. My poor Brett Brett, he's not use to walking with a cane yet.

I managed to do one load of laundry today. Hopefully I will be able to do another one tomorrow. I hate living on a crappy septic system. All winter it was fine, but I didn't know the yard gets so water logged in the spring. Standing water means the septic can't drain well and water can back up. A major drawback of spring. Almost makes me want to wash dishes in big basins outside so I'm not sending water into the septic. Same with washing clothes. Arg!

Well one day of work before we go to Brett's appointment. I hope he does ok at work. I don't want him in a lot of pain at the end of the day.

Tsubaki is all charged up, but I'm not going to take her in the bedroom tonight. I need to get to sleep here soon, and I will be too temped to stay up all night surfing the net, and I already spent all day on it. Time to let her rest. Night! Laters! Savvy?

-Aislin

Words from Tsubaki.

So, I you know how I was bragging about how well my laptop was running after all these years? Well I shouldn't have opened my big mouth, because my dell decided that it couldn't run the Internet anymore. Sucks huh. That's Murphy's law for you. Well I promptly got on the phone to Staples and asked if they had the same laptop I got for Brett. They didn't but they had a HP that was similar and was cheaper. Sold! I drove down there, bought it and was back to watch the Kentucky Derby pre-race. BTW when a long shot like Mine that Bird won the race, it just further proved that you shouldn't bet on the big races.

So now I have a swank new lappy that I named Tsubaki, which after watching the latest episodes of Naruto Shippuden, mean Camellia Flower. I like the word that and Tsubasa, which means wings. But back to the subject. I love Tsubaki, she runs so well and her wireless card rocks! Don't worry, my dell still has a purpose, we are going to turn her into a library computer to store things. Waste not and all of that.

My poor Brett is in a lot of pain right now. We are going to an orthopedist Tuesday, but I still wish there was something I could do for him. If they can't fix what's wrong, I'm going to change the way I look for a house. I'm going to have to find a place where it's easy for him to get around with a cane, so no stairs.

A place where I can handle most of the work myself, since he is limited on what he can do. I'm sure I can find a place, but I would prefer to have him better and not in pain anymore.

I found a website called Sailor Moon Abridged. It's hilarious. They took the Sailor Moon episodes and dubbed there own words over it. Everyone needs to check it out.

I watched a show on hulu for the first time. The quality was amazing. Yes the buffering was annoying, but it's nice to go full screen with something and not have it all blurry and pixelized. I definitely recommend it.

I had to slosh through the yard to pick up sticks so douchbag magee that my aunt hired could come and mow. Seriously, what moron mows after tons of heavy rains in a yard with standing water? I swear if the grass was a foot underwater, he'd still try to mow it. Then accuse me of not picking the sticks and asking him to keep it down. That f'ing pisses me off.

Brett wants everyone to know that he won the Indy 500 on Batracer. He's silly.

Well I'm going to continue messing around on the next, drinking Black Cherry wine. Laters! Savvy?

-Aislin